i did it.

I sent out my demo reels, resumes, cover letters, and logsheets yesterday. It was momentous. For the week prior, I was preparing coverletters and stuff nonstop, burning DVDs nonstop. I was at kinko's for fucking hours and charged like $130 in printing fees to my dad's credit card. And now, we wait.

I ran today. For the third time since moving back here. The bike path by the Lucent campus is really nice. It weaves through foresty areas and grassy plains. It's gorgeous. A good change of pace from living in the city for two semesters. In general, I think I've been doing fairly well in balancing work and exercise. I feel so isolated here though.

I picked up another freelance job from a guy in LA. He seems like a nice guy. This should be good for me. I've also been continuing work for the japanese studio. I just pumped out the first pass of another set of blendshapes. It feels good getting work done but I'm exhausted in so many ways.

I've been reading "Guns, Germs, and Steel" by Jared Diamond. It's really, really good. It's sort of solidifying my deterministic world view. It searches for ultimate reasons for how civilizations have developed and interacted through the course of history. So far I've learned a great deal about how hunting/gathering and food production played out on the different continents and how the effectiveness of each technique was determined by ecological/geographic factors. There's so much I'm neglecting to mention just because I'd butcher the explaination, or at least be forced to simplify it to a point where it would lack context. I highly recommend it though. Helps you understand the world around you in a rational, cause and effect sort of way. It also allows you to dismiss the conscious or unconscious tendency to think any race is intellectually superior to any other by explaining how each civilization got to where it is today. Fuck. I suck at explaining this shit. Read it.

Goodnight.

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